I’m One More Survivor in the 1 Billion Rising
Location
I’m One More Survivor in the 1 Billion Rising
I’m going to be a survivor in the 1 Billion Rising
Got to escape and run away free
For another day can’t be about you but, me
Another strike, another blow
Beaten so much my life seems so cold
What’s my heart and souls worth I ask
You keep making me feel as if I’m nothing but dirt in your task
The pain and fear goes way too deep, I wish I could die here in my sleep
I’m a collection of your evil knifes on a shelf
Tears in my eyes swell up
Silence is a hurtful pain to hold
Been told to just close my words within my mouth and shut up
No one needs to know what has happened to me I’ve been told
I often find myself shivering in disbelief out in the cold
I wish I could just die and stop living in fear
I fill my nose wrinkling up as my eyes being to tear
My heart aches and I feel it fighting for another beat
Just way too close to my heart I continue to be told I am nothing
Scars leave me breathless in pain that doesn’t go away
How can I possibly continue on as being told I am not a person but a something
My mind is scarred with visions of the painful agony you put me through
Life often seems so lonely, so terribly dark
Hiding within my heart is a cut from your evil knifes so deep that I can’t see
You’ve beaten me so badly; you’ve left your mark
My body aches as another blow to the head explodes
Bruises come and go these scars last a lifetime
Pretending nothing is wrong or that I did it to myself I feel like a mime
I’ve often had to tell stories to exclude seeing eyes of others upon me
My heart aches in pain and nothing could possibly ever be the same
One too many dark and lonely days
Turn into nights of harboring pain
I often have to pretend in order to simply explain and make it another day
I cry these many blackened tears
From the eyes of my soul I’m living in fear
I’m often told by you that I’m horrible and that no one else will have nor want me
I’m ugly, stupid, selfish, and worthless you’ve told me that I’m the one to blame
How can you destroy me with bruises shinning purple and blue
For I breathe in the danger that has wiped my soul of living where there’s shame
I believe that I am nothing for you have told me so
I’m unsure if I am able to find the strength to let go
Planning and hiding from you isn’t the life I dreamt
For you’ve taken my life and tossed it on the ground
I’m often turning in more directions then I can handle in circles so round
My heart won’t stop hurting with depths of pain I keep hiding
The nights often turn into days with horrible sounds
I can’t sleep or take a moment’s step towards freedom it’s binding
For you’ve taken my life and tossed it on the ground
Been told to just close my words within my mouth and shut up
No one needs to know what has happened to me I’ve been told
I find myself always shivering in disbelief
Silence is a hurtful pain to hold
Will I ever see tomorrow with relief
You’ve taken my dignity and threw it all away
Dug into the dirt and lost what seems like forever
I’m unsure that my heart and soul will never be found
The pain of a fist and a punching bag
Leaves me feeling so alone and sad
I can fill the tears in my eyes as the swell up with fear
I fill my nose wrinkling up as my eyes being to tear
My gut hurts and is sour from the fear that you have put into me
I wish at times I was dead for no one to look upon my body with bruises to see
Another strike, another blow what’s my heart and souls worth
You keeping making me feel as if I’m nothing but dirt
I’m often told by you how horrible I am
I’m ugly, stupid, selfish, and worthless I’m told that I’m the one to blame
The fear and terrier in my soul is nothing but a terrible feeling of shame
I hate you for hurting me; I hate myself for being so afraid of walking away
I have done all that I could to ask for a way out, I’d often pray
I can fill the tears in my eyes as they swell up
I fill my nose wrinkling up as my eyes being to tear
At times think I’m always living in fear
No one needs to know what has happened to me I’ve been told
Silence is a hurtful pain to hold
I believe that I am nothing for you have told me so
I’m unsure if I am able to find the strength to let go
Planning and hiding from you isn’t the life I dreamt
Another strike, another blow what’s my heart and souls worth
You keeping making me feel as if I’m nothing but dirt
Pretending that I’m alright
You’ve kept beating me as your punching bag
This isn’t what I planned for my life in sight
My life with you has been nothing but a drag
Let me go and I won’t say a word
I just want to leave without your hurting hands covering me
My visions been destroyed and blurred
Let me go, so I can once again see
Silence is a hurtful pain to hold
I cry in so much agony and pain with these many tears
From the eyes of my soul I’m living in fear
Let me go, so I can once again see
My visions been destroyed and blurred
I can’t live in silence any longer you’ve taken my life but, I am stronger
To finally leave you and your damaging words, fists, and hands
I’m going to finally be within peace, free, and shining
For I am One More Survivor in the 1 Billion Rising
I’m going to finally be within peace, free, and shining
For I am One More Survivor in the 1 Billion Rising
Written and Copyrights By: Deanna M Culver
February 15, 2013