In Hopes that I Might Hear

Mon, 06/16/2014 - 20:54 -- CELINEA

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95116
United States
37° 21' 21.1068" N, 121° 51' 2.0448" W
95116
United States
37° 21' 21.1068" N, 121° 51' 2.0448" W

At night, I like to lay awake in bed and imagine

what the world might really be like. 

 

I put on my headphones and I turn up my music

until I can't hear myself think

and I hope that tomorrow will be kinder. 

 

In the morning, I like to lay awake in bed and imagine

what the world might really be like. 

 

I take my headphones off and I turn down my music

so that I can hear myself think

and I try to convince myself that getting out of bed is worth it. 

 

At noon, I like to lay awake in bed and imagine

what the world might really be like. 

 

I stare at the ceiling and ignore the pleadings of my mother

so that I can turn over and try to sleep. 

Because tomorrow will not be kinder

and getting out of bed is hardly ever worth it. 

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