that beautiful, hideous, sunset
always brings that beautiful, hideous, sunrise
holding so many memories between each other
memories of the hurt
memories of the first day
the first day i opened my eyes
that hideous star glowed so beautifully
waking up the world with its fire
putting the world to rest with its pink, orange, red lights
memories
heart breaks and heart aches
love and lust
that star was always there
with all its beauty
and yet, its hideous
hideously beautiful in a sense
beautifully hideous in another
sort of like that IT girl thats prettier than the rest
yet ugly because of whats inside of her
or that
ex boyfriend that was soo perfect
until he fucked over your heart, that is.
that sunset
that sunrise
will always be a fucked up image in my head
simply because
it was only there when i was happy with the ish that would later f*ck my heart up
when i needed that warm, luminous, calming light
it was no where to be found
that beautiful, hideous, sunset
with its beautiful, hideous, sunrise
will always be the most hideously beautiful thing in my life
and now
at this very moment in time
it's placed a brand new image in my head
an image that only adds to the reasons why i that star is so hideously beautiful
beautiful, hideous sunset?
i loathe you
because everytime i look at you now
i will forever be reminded of the days when you were there
they were the lowest
and every time i see you
every time i think of you
all i'll be able to picture
is HIS beautiful, hideous, face
gazing at you
alone
preparing
to do the one thing you will never do
beautiful, hideous, sunset
why are you always there when i say my goodbyes?
beautiful, hideous, sunrise
why are you the first thing i see after i do things that later f*ck up my life?
beautiful, hideous, sunset
beautiful, hideous, sunrise
sometimes i wish you'd set for the last time...