Hidden Mask
I ask calmly
Fear hidden behind serious lips
And dry cheeks
As I pretend I have swallowed
A thousand butterflies
Of joy;
That they carry with them
Excitement,
Not foreboding
And you lather me
In a security blanket of words
Promises and compliments
That wrap around my heart
That only cover the fears outside
And I get my answer
Not in the poetry of love
Spilling from your desperate lips
But from the contradiction of your
Movements
A dance that does not match
The song you sing
You have only ever had time enough
For the company of two
My time came and went
During a soft spring shower
With light drizzle
And warm embraces.
Now the storm has arrived
And I must face
The raging wind –
The pelting hail
Alone
Drenched in giant drops
Of Sorrow
Hiding behind a plastic smile
I begin to unravel
Your security blankets
And replace that barrier
With an army of bricks
For I must learn
To become my own
Umbrella
Else I drown
All alone.