I didn't really think I was fat at first

Because at first I was getting healthy

Then my heart was stolen and smashed

And I realized I was no one if I couldn't be thin

The weakest thing I could do was to eat

So I didn't

And I was still fat

And my heart was still lost

The only way I could hide the disgusting person I was

Was if I could be thin

Because then everyone would envy me

And they told me I was too skinny

When all I could see was sickening fat

And they told me they were jealous

Which made me want to be thinner

Because I hated myself more

And now I'm not thinner.

I don't know how to hide myself now