Help me up, help me out
I can clearly remember
how I felt waking up on the 25th of September.
A juxtaposed meloncholy
for a day that was supposed to be happy.
Eighteen
I had been waiting
to feel a sudden changing
A shift in soul
from child to adult.
I didn't at first.
It wasn't a wave pulling me under an ocean of paperwork and student loans
It was a current pushing me to places unknown.
I'm constantly faced with questions I don't have answers to:
Will I move away?
What will I do?
Will I be okay?
Can I handle something new?
I might need a hand to hold on to.
Someone to water the seed
that will help me grow
into the person I want to be.
After I flourish
There's no stopping me
I'll be charming as a daisy
and strong as an evergreen.
I know I'm not there yet
I'm learning to be independent
There's no shame in asking for help
from family or friends.
I'm different from who I was last year
Holding onto naivety like a security blanket
Asleep to the world
Hiding me from my fears.
I've woken up since then
Letting sunlight shine in
I won't waste the life I've been given.
I'll continue to grow
I'll try to lead the way
I'll learn to balance and be happy
I'm going to be steady.