The Hand I Was Dealt

Location

Loveland Colorado
4390 mcwhinney blvd 9-14
United States
40° 24' 37.6308" N, 105° 0' 7.3476" W

 

What started out as paradise, 
 
Couldn't have been told a bigger lie,
 
What started out as meaning,
 
Turned out to blind all of my seeing,
 
What path I chose to go down on,
 
One could question if I was dead wrong,
 
Before I knew what I was into,
 
I was too deep down to see the truth,
 
A short life of pain and misery is what I felt,
 
I thought this must of been the hand I was dealt,
 
I made up my mind early on,
 
That I was going to live a life of wrong,
 
Faded memories and hearts broken,
 
I still kept on going,
 
Killing my self day by day,
 
I questioned whether I should pray,
 
Family and friends planning on a young mans funereal,
 
The pain and misery was taking its tole,
 
With walls closing in,
 
The thought of suicide was too much of a sin,
 
One day when I couldn't take anymore,
 
I suddenly saw a door,
 
When I opened to see what was inside,
 
I was promised a new life,
 
Each route I would choose,
 
I had something to lose,
 
Will I sacrifice all I know?
 
Was my mind ready to be shown?
 
I was at a crossroads,
 
I would fear fear the unknown,
 
or I would fear the known,
 
when I entered the door that was promising truth,
 
I saw a dark hole,
 
I was promised if I had jumped down,
 
I would be caught and be found,
 
in life there sometimes comes a leap of faith,
 
when I took mine, little did I know the meaning of saved,
 
I was brought back from a place called hell on earth,
 
and it was at  this point I had found everything I have always searched,
 
Was I wrong to risk my life until the point of no return?
 
Or was it the only way real happiness is learned,
 
All I know is that I am happy,
 
that this was the hand I was Dealt .
 
25 Years of Age 5 Years Sober
 
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