A Gift, With All My Love
The wheels of my bicycle turn
Grinding into the trail as if to tell the dirt where it has been
The spokes a silver flash in the gathering darkness
My hands curled around the handlebars until the rubber begins to sweat
If “Look ma, no hands!” was an option for the unbalanced
I’d creep ten greedy digits towards the sky, when it is the bluest blue, inhabited by the grazing of slow, full clouds
or
when dusk has stolen the azure summer
and light evacuates as the not quite night steals into the world’s ceiling, unasked, uncalled for, the moon its pied piper
I would take my palms and cup the stars like apples, pluck clouds by their tails, leave them in a basket for you
I’d give you the wicker filled with stolen atmosphere, the sunset stained and speckled with a side of the fallen rain reborn as mist
I’d give these to you with the same thieving hands that abandon handle bars
But alas, no Creator deemed it fit for a human to snatch from Its domain
the finite stretch of my arms a precaution as property investment
even gods protect their galleries behind velvet rope
The tininess of my flesh body renders me irrelevant in cosmic sight
And so, in my simple mortal ways I return these receptacles of want, guilty of their criminal touch, to the slippery handlebars
My eyes steal what my hands cannot
My heart beats like a felon against the cage
the blood circulates so I may be pure to worship the sky properly, just the act of living is cleansing
Or so I’d like to believe
The handlebars fade to paper and the cuffed wrists take refuge in the pen, substituting the golden key for ink of similar purpose
The precious, liquefied escape bleeds onto the paper
and slowly, slowly
a gift is being wrought
Melded by language
wreathed in leaves, burning clean incense
warding off evil spirits
even if they are me
This present, a talisman
Back pocket charm, souvenir for the time our paths crossed
You’ll forget me like the precise shade of the sky as it cartwheels throughout the day
For me, through this loophole, I reclaim the heavens, triumphant
But then the CHERUBS come to bless me in their cheeky ways
as they flit to and fro about the reconstruction, chattering about my work
“The imitator,” they chitter
“Fraudulence, sub-par, no-good!”
words are fleeing from me like ghosts at the dawn
I have always been worth my weight in these words
“Sub-par!”
And suddenly
“No-good!”
I’m weightless
(Look ma, no hands!)
Watch me
as I dig my heels into zenith and tear the world like wallpaper
Watch me
as I paste it over my shortcomings
Cover it in repentance and apologies
Hiding and exposing
At the very end, this is all I can give
I sacrifice,
I offer,
I birth and I orphan
With all my love,
my poetry,
in a nice wicker basket