I am a doll made of string.

Crocheted of wool.

But my knots are untying

My seams are unraveling.

I bleed out white clouds of happiness

And smile through the pain.

Ignorance is bliss

But that one little doll

You used to play with as a child

Now abandoned on the top shelf

Sees everything.

She sees your pain

And tries to comfort

But only makes things worse;

Only brings up upsetting memories

Of the past

When you loved that doll.

When you loved me.

Do you know I loved you too

And still do now?

I miss you.

 

I watch you grow up

Leaving me in your dust

I'm scared.

When did the rules change?

When did we become so obsessed with love?

Everything's going too fast.

I used to be top of the class...

Now I'm falling behind.

I used to have so many friends...

We are growing apart.

The future terrifies me, okay!?

Stop calling me weak!

You don't know what will happen, either.

In just three years, will we even be alive?!

People die often...

 

I'm so cold.

Cold is for ice

And dead bodies

I think I'm soon going to join the latter.

I'm starting to freeze.

My fingers, now my toes.

I'm scared. So, so scared.

The ice creeps up my calves.

My lips are blue.

I'm scared.

I can't move my hands.

And my legs won't move, either.

My arms, now.

My expression freezes into a smile.

I can't cry for help.

I'm scared.

They're getting annoyed.

"C'mon, move," they say.

Little do they know, I can't.

 

I am a doll.

I am alone.

I am abandoned.

I.

Am.

Frozen.