you learn about it

hear about it

have sympathy for those whom have come across it

but never do you consider it

these fouR letters

 

they never have had meaning to you

never are they in your thoughts until

one

by

one 

those four letters

tresspass thorugh your entire being, stealing your soul, demolishing your heart, terrorizing your thoughts, changing your entire life

 

unconsciously. . . 

your wrongs become rights

rights become lefts

paths intertwine

your whole self is em[       ]pty 

the steady beat of your drum becomes fAint

there is nothing left except those four letters burning their marks underneath your skin

 

those letters become your life

they begin to take over, 

your mind, body, spirit, your emotions

no longer do you feel the ability to love

so you hop from one to another until you find the man who will fill you with the ability to overthrow your current ruler

you "love" until there is no one left to love

 

you laugh to smile and find the Perfoct one who will never allow these letters to effect your happiness

what you fail to realize is when those letters moved in,

your ability to be genuinely happy was destroyed

 

you live a life of hell inside

slowly being forced to peirce ones own heart with the dagger of life,

not knowing how to remove it....

 

you build up the strength to survive

until you rEalize your already dead inside 

and the only things that remain are those four letters