I need you to tell me where I went wrong
I’ve spent too many nights, afraid of something I do not know
Terrified, that I might make the same mistake
But it’s a hundred times more powerful than you think
The reality is, you can’t run away if you don’t know what you’re running from
I need you to tell me when you stopped loving me
I need you to make me understand why I was mean
Too many days, I’ve wondered why you would leave me high and dry
Too many hours, spent in front of a screen, trying to decode your messages
I need you to tell me when the world stopped spinning
I am twirling in circles, and the world doesn’t want to dance with me
My steps become lighter each time
Is this what it feels like to die?
I need you to tell me why. Why you said the things you said.
Why left, the you way you did
Why you did not answer, when you said you would
Reality is, I’m standing on air
I need you to answer,
When did the world fall apart?
When did your heart stop beating?
When did my mind start racing?
When did my hands stop shaking?
When did my mouth stop opening?
I need you to tell me,
For I can no longer speak
The truth that comes out of me
Has nothing to do with you anymore
Not because I do not want you there
But because you have chosen to ignore my sight
The words that can no longer be heard are lost in your mind
They no longer exist in mine
I need you to dance with me
At least one last time
So I can understand how much you’ve changed
You said you loved dancing
But your dancing shoes are in corner, tucked
Has your passion shifted?
Or did you lie?
No, no, the problem is me
Or maybe, it’s you?
These hours have turned to days
And days have turned to weeks
And weeks have turned to months
And by now it’s been years since I’ve last seen your face
And I have forgotten how to look at you.
I have forgotten how to greet you
I have forgotten how to respect you
You are but a memory in my mind,
A memory that is blind
And I need you to understand
The world isn’t moving anymore.
I’ve stayed sixteen, and I haven’t aged
I’ve stayed in the place where you last saw me
And reality is, that the universe doesn’t agree.
You’ve aged, and changed, and grown
And our love is no longer young
And our desire has run cold
My passion has left my heart
My darling, when will explain to me,
How did this start?