A Flower That Blooms In The Dark

I am a broken being
 
a bleeding beautiful soul
 
built by hatred
 
hurt by words
 
but that's not all
 
 
I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
 
 my heart rattles around in my chest
 
I can't seem to find the missing pieces
 
at night insomnia  knocks on my door
 
I hide beneath quilts and pillows
 
thinking they will protect me from the monsters in my room
 
but I keep forgetting that they too are in my head
 
 
 I have a disorder called social anxiety 
 
It makes it hard to fit in at school
 
I do all my work quietly
 
but I only leave myself looking like a fool
 
 
 I make it through the cafeteria slander
 
even through the haunting hallways of high school
 
I try to pay attention to all of my lessons
 
but it's hard when you're living with depression
 
 
darkness tries to swallow me whole
 
it corners me in the depths of my soul
 
 and keeps me caged like a blue cockatoo
 
never allowed to expand her wings in the skies
 
or even learn to take flight before the sun sinks and dies
 
 
I'm restricted in a world of opportunity
 
searching for the explanation of life
 
wanting the will of unity
 
But pinned by the silver tip of a knife
 
It may seem like there is no hope
 
when you live in the dark
 
but darling I've found beauty in the night
 
 
despite the negativity sent by the devil
 
I've received positivity brought by the man above
 
I was planted by seeds of love
 
Enabling me to bloom
 
despite the darkness that loomed
 
 
 
I found light in life
 
the beauty in land
 
Comfort in sound 
 
But the best thing to find
 
Was a pen and paper
 
 
I found what I could define
 
And that was myself
 
A dreamer 
 
A writer
 
A singer
 
An author
 
 
I am a rose
 
Pretty at sight 
 
And shielded by thorns
 
 
 
I am a blooming human being
 
Who has found what she's long searched for
 
For her every meaning
 
For her forever purpose
 
I am a poet
 
And God I know it
 
 
This poem is about: 
Me

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