I have never been so lost in my life,

I used to know who I was,

I used to not care so much about what people thought.

I was never really a leader, but now I wasn't even in line.

I forgot who I was after the cruel words were banged over my head

A thousand times over.

I was told I was wrong and brainwashed into taking the bait.

I tried to blend in, but that didn’t feel right.

I wasn’t meant to blend in, but I was so lost,

I didn't even know how I got to the place I was in.

Asking for help seemed wrong, like I was giving up.

But I couldn’t go on the same way anymore,

I was driving myself over the edge.

I needed to stop, take a step back and look at the big picture.

I was alive, no one bothered me anymore, and I was gonna be ok.

Step 1 was talking more, saying the things I thought in my head.

Step 2 was wearing the clothes that wouldn’t make me invisible.

Step 3 was learning it’s ok to trust again, to rebuild bridges

That had been burnt for the wrong reasons

Step 4 was doing things on my own, and being ok with that.

Step 5 was doing them with other people

Step by step, right then left, I found my way back onto a new path.

The path that felt right for me.