Every time you are near me

I can just barely contain the happiness

There is just something about you that

Takes the pain away

 

It disappears in a cloud of smoke

As if it was never there.

As if it was just a figment of my imagination

As if you sucked the venom out from

Where the snake had sunk his fangs in.

 

It overwhelms me and

My world lights up in a way it never has before.

It is so unexpected,

I’m a - I am afraid

that if i move

You would walk,

Pull,

Just move away.

 

Then I would be right back where

I was before.

Only It would be worse

Because by then I would of hit the high

The high i get of you.

I would know what it is like to soar above it all .

It would be like i had forgotten how to flap.

I would be back where i was,

Only i would plummet even farther down.

I would see my old point fly past me

As i rocket towards the ground.

 

Only to stop just inches from the end.

So close to to the release of pain.

Because there you are.

Back again.

Back to bring me to that blissful high again

But I am shaking this time.

I don’t want you to go again.

I don’t want to feel that again.

 

What if you aren’t here to stop the fall this time?

what if i hit?

The pain will spread through my limbs

Breaking every bone.

The screams of agony barely a whisper

Of sound. MOre like a breath escaping from my lungs.

Where all the air has been strangled out of me.

 

I can see it in your beautiful brown eyes.

Those eyes that have made me melt

But i forget they are also the reason

I can no longer sleep

They won’t leave my mind.

 

Your eyes, They give it away.

You’re thinking.

What are you thinking?

Please don’t be thinking about this.

 

They’ve changed.

No. No change your mind.

You can’t.

Don’t walk away this time.

Please?

I’ll fall.