Fact:

 

His lips were soft

 

They tasted like nothing

 

Fact:

 

His hands were big

 

They left no impression on my skin

 

Fact:

 

He held me close

 

And I thought about Spanish homework

 

Fact:

 

His eyes are beautiful

 

And I did not stare deeply

 

Fact:

 

His voice was soft

 

And I was blank

 

Fact:

 

I have wanted someone

 

To look at me

 

For so long

 

That when he did

 

When he stared at my face

 

And cupped my cheek

 

And stroked my hair

 

I felt nervous

 

I felt aroused

 

But in my heart

 

Where I wanted to feel it-

 

Fact:

 

I can’t even let myself have this moment uncomplicated

 

And I feel nothing.