he said " everything would be ok " 
we both knew that was a lye 
he just wonted me to belive it 
just wonted me to smile 
but how could i 
i just sat there and stared at him 
in such disbelief 
he was thinking of how he could help 
he had no idea 
so he gave me a hug and just sat next to me 
that actually helped me 
i smiled 
he started to cry 
he didn`t understand how i could actualy smile when he knew how bad it was 
he knew that tomarrow everything would not be ok 
but for a second 
I WAS ACTUALLY OK