I see the lights flashing before my eyes
They say my fight is up
I am gone
I see nothing but white and big silver gates that say, "Gates of Heaven"
I panicked no matter what I said no one would hear me
I looked down passed the clouds
I see my lifeless body lying on the floor
My friends are just getting the message
They are hurt
They are crying
They are asking why I did this to them, to my family, to me
Am I selfish?
I wish I could go back in time
I see how much I meant to so many people
But I just wanted the pain to go
I didn't want to hurt anyone
I see how much my death has affected so many
It can not be real, can it?
I just wish I was still down there with everyone