Why must I wait so long?
Am I not ready to move up in the ranks?
Can I not handle it?

I tell myself to not be plagued by doubts and fears
But what does that leave?
What should it leave?

Does confidence remain?
Should it remain, when I am stuck where I am?
Able to see the brightness ahead, but unable to escape to it?

Unable to ever touch that brightness fully?
For lack of time?
For not starting now?

Is it more reasonable to stay where I am, struggling against my bonds?
Should I just sit back and listen, when I know there's so much more ahead?
When I know I may never get to experience everything fully if I sit back now?

Or is it worth it to soak in the light shining now, rather than to overlook it?
Even though the future is brighter?
Could the light available now be necessary?

Could it be important?
Could it be beneficial?
Could it be what I need?

Or is it just a blockade to the abundance of light waiting right in front of me?
This pool of light...do I try to reach it?
Do I overlook the light with me right now and try to grasp it all?

Or do I wait and let time defeat all boundaries,
Leaving me free to dip in this pool of luminescent beauty,
Even if it fades before I've absorbed all its light?