Empty
I feel numb inside
Detached from myself and everything around me
No amount of love or comfort
Could thaw this heart of mine.
I feel like a ghost
Existing in a world I don't want to live in
Going through the motions of life
But not really living.
I don't feel anything
I don't feel love, happiness, joy, excitement
I don't feel pain
I don't feel the sadness i'm so used to.
I'm watching as my life moves on without me
The world spinning in circles
But im no longer a part of it
I'm nothing more than a lost drifting soul.
Watching as my feet hit the pavement
Hearing the dull thud
But I can't feel it
I'm completely dead inside.
For so long ive wanted nothing more than to be rid of this pain
But without it I have nothing
It was the last thing I had left
And now it is gone.
I'm dragging a blade through my skin
trying desperately to feel something, anything.
Im curling up on the cold ground
A broken, empty thing.
Comments
Login or register to post a comment.
why.try
How do you feel nothing? ive tryed for about 3 months to become emotionless but it only happens at werid times but never stays, is there something more i can do?
weepingwillowtree
its not really something i can control. it comes at weird times as well.
some days I'll just wake up feeling empty and dead inside,
sometimes I'll have moments of numbness throughout the day.
have you thought about seeking professional help? this probably isn't what you wanted to hear when you asked me, and i have no idea what your going through, but therapy is a great resource and something i encourage greatly.
also feeling "numb" isn't as great as it sounds, yes you cant feel pain, but you also cant feel joy, or love, and you still or "i" still feel just as broken.
i wish i could help more but im just as lost as you are. i can say this though. whatever your going through your not alone and it does get better.
also i think you are en amazing poet. keep writing:)
why.try
i have been going to therapy, i dont really feel like it helps tho. i have considered what would happen if i did become emotionless and i dont mind not feeling joy, and i know this sounds werid but i hate love, i know it still feels broken but its nice knowing people cant see how you feeling so when they ask, they belive im fine and leave me alone. thanks for the complement, i like to write songs more than poems but im to self-conscious to post them so i do poetry instead. i also love your work and find a lot of inspiration from reading your poems, thanks for responding!
weepingwillowtree
I've always been good at concealing emotion and the truth is, its not a good thing. if anything it creates more pain and resentment because yes nobody knows whats going on with you, but then your forced to deal with the pain alone. i know its not easy but sometimes reaching out to people and just explaining to them what your dealing with and how its been affecting you is the best thing to do. honesty is the strongest weapon, nobody can hide from the truth, you cant ignore the truth, and becoming emotionless might feel like the best thing to do but in the long run its not. you'll only end up pushing people away, you'll isolate yourself and people might think your fine, but you wont be. people always think im okay even when im not because i hide my emotion, but as a result nobody can help me, and im stuck to deal with my problems on my own. did this help?
i also love writing songs. haven't posted any though.
why.try
I understand where you're coming from And I'd rather deal with the pain alone i know that its not for everyone but im more of an introvert I don't want to bother people with my problems when they have their own. I'd rather help people with their own problems so that they accept me I'm also really good at faking emotions even when I'm sad I can seem to be happy and im thoroughly believable I've always been a persuasive liar and a lot of people believe me when I tell them im fine, I just change the subject and ask them if they're okay and try to help them, then they like me more, I have one friend who is really hard to convince and i tell her some things but i just feel worse to have someone see that im vulnerable, my family wants me to be the one girl in the family who's tough and strong so i'm not Supposed to show any weak points.
I think you would be amazing at songwriting sense songs and poems are a lot alike and your poems are awesome!
weepingwillowtree
everything you just said me to. im a major introvert, i don't like to bother people with my problems ( as i mentioned in some of my poetry) and i always feel exposed when i do open up. but look at it this way, your scared of hurting other people with your pain but as a result your hurting yourself. i know it feels like people will stop liking you if they see your hurt, but if thats true those people arent your real friends. its scary to try and open up trust me im struggling with this just as much, but you can ether continue to hide yourself and slowly drown or you can take a leap of faith and trust that people will except you for the person you truly are and not the person they want you to be. also keep in mind that people will not be affected by your pain the way it affects you. never forget that the person you should be helping the most is yourself. if you continue to bottle and hide the pain will only get worse, opening up is scary but its the best thing you can do for yourself. remember that there will always be people that are there for you that understand what your going through, they might not be the same people you have right now, but there out there. its also not fair to you or anyone else to keep yourself hidden, and it is not your job to keep others happy. you are an amazing person, and there will always be people that will try to hurt you, but you can be stronger then that. real strength is not gained by hiding its gained by showing the world you are comfortable in your own skin and they can ether love you ar hate you. i believe in you, you just need to believe in yourself.
thank you so much for the feedback, i appreciate it.
why.try
every person i talk to ends up hateing me and hurting me more than its worth. thanks for the advise tho, i can try this but it will all end up the same, but thanks for trying and being the only person on this site who resonded, i hope you continue writeing poems, you do an amazing job at it!
weepingwillowtree
i know its hard, and its easy to lose hope, especially when you keep getting hurt, but you shouldn't give up and you shouldn't turn your back on the world. im glad i could help, and if there is ever anything else you need help with feel free to reach out to me.
thank you i will keep writing! same goes for you you are also a very powerful writer!
weepingwillowtree
I've always been good at concealing emotion and the truth is, its not a good thing. if anything it creates more pain and resentment because yes nobody knows whats going on with you, but then your forced to deal with the pain alone. i know its not easy but sometimes reaching out to people and just explaining to them what your dealing with and how its been affecting you is the best thing to do. honesty is the strongest weapon, nobody can hide from the truth, you cant ignore the truth, and becoming emotionless might feel like the best thing to do but in the long run its not. you'll only end up pushing people away, you'll isolate yourself and people might think your fine, but you wont be. people always think im okay even when im not because i hide my emotion, but as a result nobody can help me, and im stuck to deal with my problems on my own. did this help?
i also love writing songs. haven't posted any though.
champsundeen
Everyone faces difficulties
..
One time or another...
Helping others isn't bad.
Going out of your way to help others ain't bad...
What's bad is losing yourself on the way, or helping others in a way that'll affect you negatively...
It's not okay to do that.
You should always think of your well-being
Just learn to value your self
I will like to followed you Guy's keep on