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EMPTY
Empty-
I've always felt empty.
Maybe that was because I was breathing
In all those toxic fumes of love
That escape from the bottom of an
All-most empty tank.
Alone-
I've always felt alone.
Could it be that the times I sat in front
Of the mirror, putting on make-up
And talking to myself - is what I believed
To be the most valuable asset I had?
My beauty - was just a reflection
Of being alone.
Unsure-
I've always felt unsure.
For every decision, or answer to every question,
For every time I did what I wanted and
Not what they expected - was I wrong?
Am I really to blame?
I'm still unsure.
Ignored-
I've always felt ignored.
Left out of everything, standing so close,
But still so far and removed
Never included in things that weren't
Important anyway
Except to me, especially
When I was being ignored.
Ridiculed-
I've always felt ridiculed.
Every word that left my lips, a laughing
Joke amongst the many, all those who never,
Ever had one single independent thought for themselves,
Because they never took the time to think -
They're all too busy laughing and pointing,
Talking and condemning,
My original thoughts on
Why they did ridicule me.
Betrayed-
I've always felt betrayed.
When my world's been shattered and some
Support is what I reach for;
I find cold faces and hot tempers
And walls of backs turned against me,
In pain, in need, in righteousness,
No matter, for those I loved
Betrayed me.
Confused-
I've always felt confused
Why is everything so out-of-whack with me?
Why is it one way here and another way there?
I'm wrong; yes, sometimes, but never all of the time.
Even when I'm good - I'm bad, yet the other person -
who equaled my shame, they are praised the hero
For doing the same!
I'm confused.
Dead-
I've always felt dead...
Yvonne Renee Moore