Echoing silence as I scream for help
Reaching out with nothing more than a gentle smile.
Laughs that hold back the oceans of tears
Mask the pain hidden for years.
Every breath loses its appeal
More and more I've forgotten how to feel.
Numbing myself by building up walls
Deeper and deeper I fall
In to the dark depths of my destructive insecurities.
Avoiding even looking at my reflection
Out of disgust of my flawed features
I ravage in my darkness like night creatures.
Discontent with who I am and what I see
Without the slightest clue of who I wish to be.
Stuck in an endless daze
Running terrified through life like a kid lost in a maze.
Sickened when someone sings my praise.
So here I sit wishing the fog away
Here I sit praying for a better day.