A Dumpster in Love
I still don’t know how to start this train of thought
The conductor’s on break
I’ve had a few thoughts and I wish I hadn’t
But they were on sale
Paler than the skin underneath my arms.
First dates and candy canes, amongst other things
Are seasonal and sweet
And I can’t stand sugary bullshit
So I’ll brush my teeth before bed
Spat down the drain.
Because after I crawl under the blankets
The insomniac warfare begins
My cover’s not good enough
Heartbreak bullets whiz past my conscience
Scuffing the soles of my shoes.
I don’t know how to speak
Rendered immobile and deaf
To concepts that I already don’t understand
God-fucking-damn-it
Perpetually being mundane is amazing.
Over-analytical antics are not an aphrodisiac
At least, not that I can logically perceive
But the coffee’s fresh in the pot
And it’s much hotter than I am,
So how’s your day going?
Good? Good.
I’m happy that you’re doing fine
The backwards part of that question is
I’m not asking, only
Trying to relate.
My own frustrations with myself
Solved only by others inside my mind
And there’s hope like a tumor
Growing unattended in the third ventricle
My heart swells to a breaking point.
In order to relieve the pressure
I am prescribed to dream
Of growing old with someone I love
But those dreams always end how they start
I die alone.