I wanted to drown my pain last night.

I drank and drank til' the room spun into chaos.

The cheap tequila filled the gaps in my heart that you so carelessly left behind.

I wanted to drown my anger.

I screamed into the void til' I heard your name echo back

and realized the damage you had done.

I wanted to drown my sorrow.

I sat in the shower and watched as the water slipped down the drain,

along with all the memories of you I so desperately held onto.

I wanted to feel alive again.

I fell asleep with the pillow that held your scent, 

and although I tried so eagerly to get the memories carved out of my brain,

I dreamt of the world we envisioned ourselves in instead.