Don't look at me like that, i know what I'm doing is wrong.

it's not like it's something i have to do

it's just something i do

you wouldn't understand.

I know i look different

I am different. 

I even act different.

I enjoy it

it makes me happy

even if it is for a little while..

Will i stop?

I want to sometimes but the smoke

clouds my vision.

it rolls in white waves drifting me farther and father away.

Don't look at me like that, I know I am not perfect

but neither are you.

Because every time i look at you,

I see me...