"Come on", you say

"Don't be like that."

You say even as I

Push you away.

 

Taken aback by

My violent refusals,

You try harder

Even as I cry.

 

Yet silent I stood

In every room,

My youth slowly faded

And I thought I could

 

I thought I could

Preserve myself.

Keep my mind and body

Pure, and I would

 

I would have been able

To stay young a bit longer,

but you ruined it as you

Pushed me against the table.

 

Grabbing your fingers as you

Reached them down below.

Pulling them back towards you

Without a clue.

 

Without a clue how to fight

You and keep my body

And mind nice. And because

I tried to keep it right

 

You were determined

To put me in a wrong

Position. A child, so young

And I had to pretend.

 

"I'm fine" is the most

Famous lie. Everyone says

it and never mean it.

So here's a toast.

 

Here's a toast to the person

who used to hold me and

Love me so dearly. I trusted

You. You were the sun.

 

As soon as this flower

Bloomed, though, you

Picked it and it's petals

And changed them forever.

 

Don't be like this,

Papa. I was silent for

So long, but nana found out

And man, was she pissed.

 

She screamed and cried

As I stood with tears

Welling up in my eyes.

She tried and tried

 

You sat there empty

And hatred welled up,

I became cold as you

Became more elderly.

 

And now as I lay

With someone who

Loves me, I know Im a game

That he'll never play.

 

But you did, and he

Knows that you did. 

So he holds my hand

And lets me be

 

He lets me be pure

And innocent and kind.

Unlike you, a curse.

He, sir, well, he is a cure.

 

Apologized, you did

Yet I remain cold and

Distant to you, the one

Who made me ruined.

 

"Come on" you say

As I walk by you in

Silence. I don't acknowledge you,

And go about my day.

 

One last try, before

I go home. "I love you.

Don't be like that" and I

Stay cold to the core.

 

"Please, I'm sorry. I

Wish it could be different." 

"Papa, please, don't be like that."