Desperate

Tue, 09/12/2017 - 18:36 -- Zanderr

And so there I was reaching out to you,

I was calling your name....and you didn't answer. 

Tears were streaming down my face,

one after the other causing my vision to be blurred and so I couldn't see.

I couldn't see anything,

But most importantly- I couldn't see you.

You had left me again and no matter how much I begged you to stay....you wouldnt.

You were gone....until you needed me again.

You only wanted me when you could feel my body,

My curvy sides

My smooth skin

My crevices

And you accepted me despite my imperfections

At least I thought you did.

But obviously not.

And I had let you fool me so many times....

and finally you're walking away again and I'm left alone in the cold... Calling after you.

And now you're gone.

I remember everything.

You kissing my neck. I slide closer to you and suck in my breath, trying to breathe you.

Trying to be as close as I can to you....wanting to be inside you. And you grab me until I shriek and now you're inside me. 

But then you stop.

You leave.

You got what you wanted.

And so there I was reaching out to you,

I was calling your name.... and you didn't answer.

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