black, gray, white, ivory

simple colors

complex meanings

its the raw emotion i get when i talk to her

its the raw aggrivation i feel when she tries to tell me what to do

its the raw stress that builds trying to please her

and for what?

to constantly feel like the world is on my shoulders?

to constantly feel overwhelmed day by day?

to feel as if i'm drowning in an ocean of pain, fear, memories, lies, decite

for what?

what do i owe her that i have not already paid for already?

why can't she just support from a distance and let me live.

why?