I just can´t deal with this feeling of denial

I gave it my all

It makes me feel like I don´t deserve anything at all

I scratched and clawed for an opportunity for them to say no

It´s horrible and feel like a bloak

Dealing my love and love for money 

I feel like my life is a joke

I want to leave to go somewhere else

But I can´t escape this harsh reality

I feel like I don´t matter

My life is a tragedy

This never ends.

I´m sorry everybody.

I guess all my rage came through fast.

I guess I wrote this like i´m some soulless body