Hold me 

what are the odds?

Control me

why stare at my flaws ? 

I change my hair 

I change my flare 

I change my name 

I change my fear 

BUT, do you even care ? 

There are those who are hurt by the guns 

fight rounds 

voices 

pale sounds 

but an hurt by brutal hands 

I stare at myself in the mirror 

I wondered why God made me 

I was once a rare beauty 

now am a disfigured creature instead 

try me , strike me , kick me ,scold me, hang me 

I feel nothing 

For I am like the dead 

its hard being a boy 

but it's harder being a victim 

being a human drum 

screaming for Help 

being trap in a male body 

while feeling like a pleading girl - child cave deep in hell 

  

Drag my soul , please Lord 

I rather be dead 

are'nt I someone's treasure ?

instead of being  someone's pleasure , leisure ? 

Am I a disappointment ? 

I have only been on this earth for  7 years

doesn't the slender fragil  image let you shed tears ? 

why are'nt you listening to my cries of fear! 

I will rise someday and be free 

but for now , I have no liberty 

I am cold and in hunger  , starving not for food but for love and shelter

for warmth , for being held in a mother's arm 

let her tell me how beautiful and wonderful , I am

NOW , I know why the caged birds sing 

Fly , fly , fly .... away 

I do not want to be the human drummms  tonight