dear lady

I was the toy you pushed around, 

the broken gift you got.

I should never have been found,

I'm sorry I was brought.

you never really wanted me,

but can I really blame

the way you chose to live your life

was hardly less than a game

you always see the worst in others

always the best in yourself

you assumed you were the queen to save

and the rest of us the 'jects

you saved the king defended his men

but never once did I hear,

a single word for me.

the time is up the dice were cast

I chose to finally live at last

I choose simply to exist, 

your toxins paused at last. 

I can't escape; can't run away

you don't see what you've done.

so I fake a smile and you fake love

until at last day comes

I don't know how long it's been

I can't tell how long it'll last

but please dear lady let me know

answer at least this one request.

when you lay awake at night

how do you call

do you lay in bed at night

as a mother before all else?

but more importantly than the last,

this next question I beg of you

even if you find a way

to reason through your means

if at last, you love yourself

do you want me to?