When i was falling to my death

seeing light for the last time

i took my deepest breath

i remembered when i climbed

that bridge and jumped from behind

thinking in my mind

that i would be able to find

some peace

 

i felt like I never rhymed

like my brain was a dark place

like my thoughts where in a race

to ruin the sanity of my mind

I felt lonely even if i'm not alone

i felt like i was lost with no home

like my body was breaking bone by bone

like my heart was a hard stone

never able to feel alive

 

so I jumped......

 

in the middle of the air

i thought about my prayer

and how god wasn't there

when i needed him the most

but i looked at the sky

as i am about to die

i thought about my mom

and how her smile made me calm

when i was burning from inside

i remembered my dad

and how he made me enjoy

my life when i felt dead

I looked above me and thought

every smile, every laugh and every thought

every cry, evey scream, every feeling of pain

every friend, every memory and every lesson i was taught

every feeling of guilt, hate and shame

every thing i owned and everything i bought

every time i sat and said : "i am alive"

 

it's all gone now

 

note about me : I’m 15M and suicidal, i wrote this to be like a reminder for me not to give up on life and that it is still worth living no matter what. this is my first poem so i know it's not that great