Darkness (Sestina)
A few years ago, I gave my heart to the darkness
Now I am forever floating in a dark abyss
I know that wasn’t courage
I realized that I lived a life with lies
But what’s the truth?
My power?
It’s now draining slowly. Soon I will be a ragged doll without power.
Did power set me in this condition of darkness?
It’s just so hard to find the truth
That thought is in my head as if it were to enter into an endless abyss
That thought lies
Into the idea of if what I did was an act of courage
Wait, no it wasn’t courage
It was my power
A voice speaks and says that reality is full of lies
I knew it was a voice of darkness
But why in this abyss?
I asked the voice, “What is the truth?!”
The voice refused to tell the truth
All he said is that I had a lot of courage
But that so called courage led me here… in this abyss
Does this voice want my power?
No… that is a risk that will keep me forever in the darkness
I know it’s all lies!
The answer I need lies
In this abyss which is to be known as the truth
I want to know who I really am. Am I just a puppet of darkness?
Or a regular human being like everyone else? Forget courage
Forget power
But who am I kidding? I can’t get out of this abyss.
But I wonder when I am getting out of this abyss
Pfft! Stupid lies!
I think all that the voice wants is to drain my power
From realizing that, now I know the truth
For sure it wasn’t courage
That led me here, but it was that voice of darkness.
I realized that i’m just a puppet in the darkness, that’s the reason why I am in this abyss
I didn’t need courage, I just lie
To myself so I won’t realize the truth, but it’s already too late… the voice drained and awakened my true power.