When your constantly talked down upon you start to wonder what’s wrong with me, Am I the outcast why is it that I don’t feel loved, why is that everything I do is frowned upon. When you wonder where is my father above does he not see it why won’t he come save me from this destruction. When family wants you to fail when nothing positive is said but negative, when they see you they secretly say “Why is her confidence self-esteem so high, cause she not pretty like her, she’s not slim like her or oh she is not in a university like her. Things you hear that try to put thy down. Mistreated is acted upon you’re looked at as a rebellious or ungrateful but simply following “Treat people how you want to be treated. When parents take their duty and look for a reward as if I asked to be here if the choice was mine I say terminate. When abandonment is an issue I say my own mother didn’t want me so why should anybody else when no one is around to reverse the abandonment. Hurt is thrown in your face, when you hear fat, trifling, selfish, dumb, bum, stupid, or even whore, does Peter 2:9 pertain to me but Gods children are a royal priesthood so why I’m I not treated as such does God see my pain does he see I’m hurting if God see my heart doesn’t he see me giving up does God see me does my Father understand when no one else does if he truly loves me why don’t I feel loved does he see I’m trying to stay on the right path I know its about faith but faith starts to die down when your dealt a hand such as I. So God I ask what can I do, I don’t want to give up but I cant keep hurting and carrying on as I am, God reveal yourself to me show me that this isn’t the end that I need to keep my faith and you have not forgotten that you understand and Jesus name I pray
AMEN !