i dreaded every malevolent utterance when father requested he speak

   not about some choice topic dejure that brought a twinkle to my eye

      but that all to familiar monologue finding me standing like stone wall

hearing, tuning out with equally predictable trademark demurely meek

   pose with hands crossed against chest of the then easily intimidated guy

      despite feeling effects of utter ennui and fatigue attempted to stand tall

against the tsunami verbal typhoon itching to drown out said battle creek

   when asked capisce? comprende? farshtayst? looked blankly at floor well nigh

       or pretended to stare at something extreme fascinating on the kitchen wall       

for he may as well asked if i understand in an unfamiliar language such as greek

   most likely getting successful results yammering away at common house fly

      possibly seething inside (p’raps equally swatted) ready to lash out into a brawl

held back by fear plus in comparison to me pop – just a itty bitty pipsqueak

   who felt onrushing of overpowering desire to collapse and cry

      compounded by growing urge to urinate from that natural urethral call

spoke nada word, nor gave hint of hearing from loathsome blather that did reek

   like decomposition of fetid of dead living entity that began to putrefy

      which offal to mine ears, tugged impetus under warm blankets to crawl

vile odious tyrannical spout ended only when early light of dawn did peek

   punctuated with ultimatum foremost getting a job difficult as i did try

      to ignore onset of panic/anxiety attack emotional squall

evident in later years and not an indicative sign to be weak

   rather an inherent biochemical/neurological flaw impossible to pry

      loose from the psychic moorings medications lessened affect to maul!

 

     

     

 

 

     

 

  

 

     

     

 

 

     

 

  

 

   not about some choice topic dejure that brought a twinkle to my eye

      but that all to familiar monologue finding me standing like stone wall

hearing, tuning out with equally predictable trademark demurely meek

   pose with hands crossed against chest of the then easily intimidated guy

      despite feeling effects of utter ennui and fatigue attempted to stand tall

against the tsunami verbal typhoon itching to drown out said battle creek

   when asked capisce? comprende? farshtayst? looked blankly at floor well nigh

       or pretended to stare at something extreme fascinating on the kitchen wall       

for he may as well asked if i understand in an unfamiliar language such as greek

   most likely getting successful results yammering away at common house fly

      possibly seething inside (p’raps equally swatted) ready to lash out into a brawl

held back by fear plus in comparison to me pop – just a itty bitty pipsqueak

   who felt onrushing of overpowering desire to collapse and cry

      compounded by growing urge to urinate from that natural urethral call

spoke nada word, nor gave hint of hearing from loathsome blather that did reek

   like decomposition of fetid of dead living entity that began to putrefy

      which offal to mine ears, tugged impetus under warm blankets to crawl

vile odious tyrannical spout ended only when early light of dawn did peek

   punctuated with ultimatum foremost getting a job difficult as i did try

      to ignore onset of panic/anxiety attack emotional squall

evident in later years and not an indicative sign to be weak

   rather an inherent biochemical/neurological flaw impossible to pry

      loose from the psychic moorings medications lessened affect to maul!