Colorism
I was never the
Sun kissed
Yellow Rose you searched for,
I've always been
The darker flower.
So you needed an excuse
To lift the burden of falling
For me
And her complexion happened to be enough.
Still, you tried to pick pieces of me
Hold on to my blossoms
Just long enough
To see if she loved you
Or not.
But I could not
Live in her shadow,
I didn't know how
To live.
That first winter without you
Was brutal.
But I learned to survive
Despite those bone shattering chilling feelings,
Wilted half the time
And the other barely hanging on
In the frigid breeze
Without warmth or light.
And you knew that
So every time I was near
Death enough to
Uproot myself and leave,
You'd shine just enough sunlight
That my petals would sprout back to life
With hopes
That we had a chance.
You kept me behind locked gates
And invisible green houses
So that each touch of your green thumb
Felt all the more special to me,
But I was never special to you.
You never tried to see past my
Velvety dark complexion,
Never allowed yourself
Transparency with me
I was the darker one
So I got the darkest view of you.