I'm scared.

I feel like I'm freezing

from the inside out,

the frost crackling up my veins,

The icewater dripping down my spine.

I'm alone,

And yet I still sit here

Jaw hanging open in shock

Eyes welling up in sadness

Freezing

From the inside out.

 

Cold is for ice

And dead bodies

But not for me.

Not yet, at least.

But someday.

Time is ticking.

I'm so scared

That my friends' times will run out before mine,

But also scared that mine will run out before theirs'.

I owe them too much to leave them right now.

I owe them my happiness

My comfort

My love

My everything.

 

But for now I'll sit here,

Cold as ice

Slowly freezing to death

Terrified.