I’m the type to creep up on your mind at 3 in the morning
Leave you in wonder if you should hit my line or let me be
The impact I have on you leaves you wondering what it could be
If it would be
If it should be
I am the distraction to your everyday life,
You notice the pressure on your mind
So you hit my line and....
As each second passes your heart beats faster
The nerves are drowning your spirit
So you find yourself checking your phone every 3-5 minutes
Still no notification from me..
This is killing your pride
I mean your pride told you to stop..
But your emotions got in the way
You just can’t get enough of me
You’re selfish for me
I don’t blame you though
I would want me too
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Was it too dry for you?
You expected more enthusiasm—
I mean that’s what people do when they haven’t heard from you in a while and are excited to hear from you again.. right?
But you push it to the side and scold yourself for overthinking the slightest things
The conversation continues and my energy isn’t how it used to be—
Around you atleast—
And that gets to you
Why didn’t you take advantage when you truly had me?
When I was actually interested..
The regret devours you alive because you know you missed your chance
Now you will never be able to have it again
You find yourself grinding your teeth and it’s solely because you’re stressed about not having me
Now I’ve left a permanent scar in your memory
A scar that will never fade
No matter how hard you try,
Those feelings will remain because I am addicting to your soul
You try to find a replacement but it makes it worse
Because now you realize you keep moving in reverse
By trying to find someone that is just like me— or better
But there is only one of me
None like me
So you can keep trying
But you’ll never escape from the thought of me