My tired eyes close.
As my body froze.
Light from the window reflects off
The tears in my eye.
My sadness doesn't always have a why.
The perportions of my image in to your
Eyes are distorted.
I appear fat, ugly, & old.
But to myself I look thin, young, & glow.
I release my sorrow & wash my face.
Mutual attraction does not exist.
The single life I will never miss.
Why can't my lips he just kiss?
He might love it.
Why is happiness with a true love not possible?
Why is to say for him " I love you" so impossible?
The vision of my life is not how I envision.
I always assumed & imagined I would marry.
No one ever asked how scary.
In my twenties or thirties almost fourties.
I give up hope.
I realize now it will never happen for me.