For Chris
His eyes
as I said goodbye
hurt worse than the pain of being with him.
In them I saw an accusation
In them I saw a potent hurt
I remembered an unexpected, breathless kiss
When he grabbed me by the chin and dove right in
And I ran
With that kiss
That fervent kiss
He thrust me up
A stumbling step
Kissed my lips and placed me there
Balancing on tippy toes
On a pedestal so high
He looked at me
"Don't fall," he whispered
So I pushed him off instead
I swan dived after him
To land on his shattered body
The blood stained cheeks
The kiss the blank hazel eyes
I took away a piece of his heart
And kept it for my silent words
The truths I couldn't tell him.