Broken

I can't love anyone
Because right now I'm broken
But there was a time before when
I wasn't
In that time I loved him
And in that time he loved me
But that time is over
And now I live in a shattered existence

But I really miss him
And sometimes when it's raining
I can hear his voice and
It lulls me back to the
Numbness
That I've become used to
The numbness that he brought me
As a present
Along with my favorite flowers
On the day he left me

And now I cannot love you
Because I am broken
I am damaged goods
That you aren't meant to open
But if I could I'd love you
Because you act so kindly
And if I could I'd tell you
How much I've come to rely
On your smile alone