One day, I prayed to God for a boy

One that would bring me unforgettable joy

 

I remember the day we through the flowers

A moment we shared, it was only ours

We laughed and talked for hours

 

As the hours past, it felt like minutes

But I knew our time had limits

 

Despite this, I didn't care

I liked even the small things about him, his eyes, his smile, his hair

My favorite thing was his eyes, especially when he would stare

As if they were interested in everything about me, something almost rare

And this is the moment I found my safe place, I finally knew where

I wanted him in my life, this I would swear

 

It was a chilly, breezy night

I remember his eyes under the moonlight

The moment when he smiled and we locked eyes, it was just right

He told me his worries, and I told explained that the gray sky would one day get bright

 

What he didn't know was how he was he was this light to me

The way I would talk about him, always filled with glee

Although I overthink and worry, I knew he was someone I could never leave

For once in my life, I felt calm around him, free

Like I could truly just be me

 

One day he told me “this is just the start”

I want to show him my passions, my worries, my art

Although it hurts how long we have to stay apart

I know the wait is worth it because he has my whole heart.

 

I can’t get this boy out of my head

Last night all that he did, the words he said

My heart beating and grinning as I read 

 

Everytime I think of him, I blush

I want all of him, i miss him so much

I’d wait forever to feel his touch

 

He’s all I’ve ever wanted in a guy

All his kind words are so genuine, not just a lie

Every talk, every text, I’m obsessed, and to know he's all mine

Next time I see him I know I’ll want to be around him all the time

Dreading the moment of saying goodbye

I want him to feel my body, to see how much I want him, to touch my thigh

 

He makes me nervous beyond anything I’ve ever known

What I would do for a few moments with him alone

How I wish we could see each other in person, not just over the phone

To know that there’s is so much more we could do, so much passion that would be shown

All of our moments would only be our own

 

The best part is that we had just begun

And I love being around him, its comforting, it’s safe, it’s honestly fun

When he told me how he felt for the first time, I knew he was the one.❤️

 

I love listening to him talk at night 

While I lay in my bed laughing under dim light

With him, everything just feels right

 

I can talk to him for hours

While I smell of his hoodie and stare at his flowers

 

His smile is as pure as the sun, something I could never forget

I always knew he was the one, since the first day we first met

Around him, I feel no pain, no worries, no regrets

I cant help but smile when I reread our texts

 

When I saw him again I couldn’t stop staring

Not only is he handsome, but he’s smart and caring

What makes him, him is how he’s always daring

Hes daring when he tells me his worries what’s behind that smile he’s always wearing

I would give up the world to relive the moments we’re sharing

 

With him, I have no fear

While I tend to push people away, all I want is him near

Sometimes when I miss him, his laugh plays in my ear

Nothing he’s ever said has ever made me shed a tear

Around him, my negative thoughts just disappear

 

The moon and the stars

 

Why do you love him?

 

Because of the way he makes me laugh harder than anyone Ive ever known

Becuase of the way he makes me feel like Im never alone

 

Because of his patience when teaching me stuff

His soft tired voice is something I can never get enough of

Because of how he is always by my side, even when times are tough

 

Becuase the sound of his voice is like a soft hum

Once I hear his voice, I never feel judged or worried or dumb

 

Because of the way he smiles, he smiles with his eyes

Its what I miss the most during my night cries

 

Because of the way he shows people he loves how much he cares

A kind of love that is always rare

Because of the way hes willing to open up about all the pain he bares

I wish I could take some of it away, what hes been through isnt fair

 

Never once have I doubted my trust

Never once have I thought it was just purely lust

 

Never once have I thought of a future without him in it

I know I will always want to hear his thoughts, his ideas, his wit

 

They ask me once again, why do you fight so hard

Because I know around him, I never need to be on guard

 

Because 5 minutes of hearing his voice is worth it all

How I miss that the most, our late phone calls

 

I can go on and on about him and my obsession

But instead, I ask people who doubt me these questions

 

Why does the moon brighten the dark night?

Why does it make even the darkest shadows bright?

How does the sun trust the time to go down is just right?

How does the moon have the bravery, the strength, the might?

 

Because the moon doesn’t brighten the darkness alone

They need the the stars, they can never get through the darkest parts of the world on their own

 

How the stars shimmer across the sky

Not only adding light, but also a glow so high

 

Always and forever,

I will love him like the moon loves the stars🌟❤️

 

Seeing him in pictures is like seeing a ghost

Just a few more weeks, I tell myself, almost

He just recently posted a picture of him being on a whole different coast

The fact I didn’t know that is what I hate most

 

I don't know how he can go days without speaking to me

I feel like I'm trapped waiting in jail counting the days,

But when he left, he also threw out the key

And that hurt me in a million different ways

 

I feel myself slipping away from him, losing hope in him coming back

I don't know if this break really is him working on himself, or just from something I simply lack

 

I noticed that he can be distant somethings, become unattached

The deep tone of his voice when he acts different causes me pain unmatched

 

The truth is that I miss him a lot

Sometimes I just wish that he fought

 

I know that's selfish to want

But this silence is something that I will always have an unlying haunt

 

Even being with him, I will always feel scared of him pulling away again

Around him, my morals constantly bend

Because he was more than my boyfriend, he was my support system, my closest friend

Now all I remember is the time we would spend

Or reread the messages and pictures we would send

 

If we do get back together, I told everyone that it will be different, this I will always defend

But I will ask myself, if it's not different, will one day it just end?

“God please let him keep his promise of Always and Forever” Amen.

 

I miss hearing the sound of his laughter 

And going to bed smiling after

 

I miss our ignorance of not knowing how much our lives would change 

Now we are distant, different, it feels like hes acting strange

 

He says one thing, but his actions contradict

The further he pulls away from, the more it causes me internal conflict

For him, I feel like an addict

I just really really hope I'm not being tricked

 

I love him more than either of us will ever know

Seeing him in person feels so long ago

 

I love you more than you’ll ever know

I feel like I need you more then ever now 

Ever since this break, I’m at my lowest low

You’re one text away from us being us again

But I just want to know when

When will you text first

Because without you, I’m at my worst

Whenever you think you miss me, know I miss I miss you so much more 

When you left, it felt like my chest tore

With you, I didn’t have the fake smile I always wore

You were everything to me, my mentor, my core

When I see our texts, our calls, our FaceTimes I cry

I just kept asking myself why

When I brought up the idea of a break

I didn’t expect you needed a month to take

It’s feels so painful that I have to count down the days I need to wait

I miss you

I miss telling you about how how I first saw your smile, I just knew

I miss telling about my day, I want to tell you the exciting things I do

 

His voice is like the gentle breeze 

To my heart, only he has the keys

Everyday I pray he will never leave

 

I love the way his eyes squint when he smiles

I love how he has a different style

 

I love his beauty and birthmarks 

I think it gives him such a unique spark

 

I love when I look into his eyes

I want to laugh with him, to hug, to cry

 

My favorite of all is him

What I mean by him is that there is never a moment that's grim

 

It's just him being himself and his personality

I love his drive, his passion, his mentality

He motivates me to be better

He seems to have his whole life together

 

Even if we go through a hard time

I know he'll always be by my side

With him, no mountain of challenges are too difficult to climb

He is my mentor, my best friend, my guide

Whenever I speak of him, it is nothing but pride

Talking to him puts my worries aside

When he talks about our future, I know this is something that's easy to decide

Loving him is a promise I would always abide

 

I picture my future by his side, hand in hand

No problem is too grand

 

We are not the same and I think that's so cool

One day, I hope to say, “I met your dad in high school”

 

I prayed for him at the start

Now I pray with my whole heart

“Please never let us fall apart”

 

I made a promise that I will always keep

My love for him is so genuine and deep

 

My love is unbreakable, forever great

I met him not by chance, but by fate

Because I know fully in my heart that he’s my soulmate. ♾️❤️