Bound
Bound
What are pretenses
that hope should survive,
cradling false allusions,
dying on the one life thread it's tied to?
What is purpose
when it is pegged, but exposed
to the whittling pinings of lost dreams?
Where is love
when fear and distrust and greed
are all that one ever sees?
Where is peace
to calm my troubled heart?
Where is the relief
that soothes my starving needs?
Who made you my captor
to close the doors
of precious sweetness?
The door stood ajar.
My foot almost out the door
shoved back in unceremoniously.
It is shut again.
Hope was a live thing once.
It touched, exhorting forgiveness.
It is gone.
Distaste and discouragement are not aloof.
What happened to the cut bonds?
How is it that phases, illusions, strings of pleasure
are stronger than reality?
I need truth, conviction
not purports that are unsupported.
I cannot be a crutch
when I am losing my balance
with no support of my own.
Where doth the peace lie?
In the life of a known misery
or a dark, misty expanse?
I am towed to and fro.
I cannot control what is not mine.
I am a beggar to the hesitant,
Yet the rich ask.
The easeless mind wanders,
searching high and low for escape.
Crumbs are eaten instead of portion.
The grace and determination
held and wielded so greatly
are withering,
lost to the concrete world.
The strength of the great
falls to vacillation.
The fate of the innocent
unravels to the deft spin of lies.
The trust and love so bonded
bids farewell through
illegitimate consequences.
Actions do not speak love.
How unfortunate it is
that one should see through spells,
light a candle in the dark,
and yet be the only one to push.
My supposed happiness is misery.
My gift of choice is taken.
The wanted hope is no more.
Our cherished dreams do not lie within our borders.
Choosing, changing, affecting
is a hard thing.
Staying, trying, hoping, begging
only drowns one in agony.