Blood
When I was younger
I cut skin like paper
Bad blood drripping like
rain on a fooged up car window
Driving away from my shallow grave
In a dream like state
Blood hitting the floor like boults of lighting
My heart beats with no purpose
Thick chocolate pudding
Falling this is my blood I recall
and so
Looking back now i can see the red stains on the wall
and
My tears where louder then bullets escaping from that gun
I wonder did anyone hear or see my cry
for help or did they just see my smiles fade away
and think that it was normal
No one came to see if i was okay any of them nights
so i just cut away
No one cared if i faded away
so i wiped my own tears from falling
while Michelle duggar was giving birth
via emergancy C-section to her nineteenth child in counting
I started poping pills
like a drug addict
The repetition had to stop
My fire
My light still shining
But i think my freedom is looked in a prison
because still some nights the knife and pills call my name
they take to me like my bestfriend does when im having a bad day
But i want to know
How can you look at me pass judgemnt
when you dont even know me
is it enough that I judge and blame myself
i guess not because you can never please people
Pen and paper helped me
to think and have a clear mind
every once in awhile
we tag our selves and otheres in a in the same old facebook states or tweet
the facebook states
i tagged myself in a new post
the title of my new qoute
is diffrent from what instagram and twitter
means now
and
my page gets more likes and comments then Mimi's sex tapes and officer Rogers combined
I want you to put more time and effort in improving yourself
insted of juding others
and trying to improve them
My scars will eventually heal and fade
fade away a fast as thundre did
as fast as rain falling
As swift as bolt
My pen is mighter then a swored
But it all comes down to the very last pint
of a thread and needle
am i ready to bite this bullet of death this young
if i stop cutting no lost love
and i will live and learn as i get older
the elephant of suprise is
i never wanted to even start it just happened
i tell myself
people tell me what i did was YOLO
"you only live once"
my defintion was
"You Lack Originality"
But the bullet i did bite or the post i did write was the one of new life