I use filters on almost every picture I post on social media
If it makes me feel better about myself then why not?
How messed up is that sentence?
I should not have to alter my appearance to make myself feel better
Doesn’t that say something about me?
But without it, I’m a plain old boring person
I’m a teen who has not gone through anything drastic
Anything completely life changing not at all
So some people might say I’m perfect and my life is perfect
But how can I compare to their lives?
I’m a plain old blank screen of a computer
I am mechanical, just going through the everyday motions.
Every day I search for a purpose for myself
why am i here
why am i alive there must be a reason
I am so sheltered in my experience
And so scared of the outside world that if something ever did happen to me
I’d be totally lost
You see, Im not very well known
but does that make me any less of a person that is?
I were to die today most people would say that
“she was a beautiful person”
“She was always so nice”
“wait, who is she again?”
I don’t speak up
But I usually have something to say.
So who am I behind that filter?
An teenager, who lives a "normal" life
But has no fucking proof she actually lives.