Blank Computer screen

Yes,

I use filters on almost every picture I post on social media

If it makes me feel better about myself then why not?

 

How messed up is that sentence?

I should not have to alter my appearance to make myself feel better

Doesn’t that say something about me?

But without it, I’m a plain old boring person

I’m a teen who has not gone through anything drastic

Anything completely life changing not at all

So some people might say I’m perfect and my life is perfect

But how can I compare to their lives?

I’m a plain old blank screen of a computer

I am mechanical, just going through the everyday motions.

Every day I search for a purpose for myself

why am i here

why am i alive there must be a reason

I am so sheltered in my experience

And so scared of the outside world that if something ever did happen to me

I’d be totally lost

You see, Im not very well known

but does that make me any less of a person that is?

 I were to die today most people would say that

“she was a beautiful person”

“She was always so nice”

“wait, who is she again?”

I don’t speak up

But I usually have something to say.

So who am I behind that filter?

An teenager, who lives a "normal"  life

But has no fucking proof she actually lives.

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