Heartbreak,

It’s inevitable

No way around it

But the joy of the happiness

Before the pain

Is almost worth it

 

I can’t blame my pain

On anyone else but me.

I push people away, at the sight

Of compassion for me.

I can’t understand

Why anyone would care

For a girl like me

 

My first heartbreak

Oh, that one was tough

I knew my heart would be shattered

From the second he looked at me

With those ice blue eyes

That could leave you breathless

He was the boy with an icy soul.

 

I kept myself in an icebox

As he blossomed in front of me

In his hopes of finding love.

But I couldn’t accept

Someone like him

Would ever love someone like me

 

Once I realized I could care for him

Like he cared for me

It was too late

I already told him his love was unrequited

He moved on to being the soulless boy

He was known to be.

 

My second love,

Oh this was the hardest

He was my best friend

The boy to find refuge in

The good guy

Among all the bad

 

I didn’t want to fall for him.

I knew when he left

I would have no one but me.

For months I ignored the flirting

Labeled it as friends having fun.

But soon I could no longer fight it

The passion was there

 

The fear of heartbreak was too much

It took me months to let myself

Call him, my love.

But my fear for seeming overbearing

Was perceived as me not caring.

Trying to be perfect

Wasn’t perfect for him

He was blind to my love for him

After weeks of finally started to heal but,

He crushed my happiness in 185 seconds.

 

The pain of losing the one person I trust

And the first person I confessed my love to

Was too much to bear.

I shut myself out

From my friends and family

Leaving me truly alone

 

There is no one to blame

As much as I wish there was.

There is just me and my walls,

I wish I could crush

Now I let no one in for fear of

Doing wrong

Causing my heartbreak over and over

As I start to believe again who would

Ever want to love a girl like me?