I believe

In never erasing anything

In keeping every single word

I write

Sometimes

I feel like I need

To record every thought

That comes into my head

Or I will forget it

 

But somehow

My approach on life is different

In life

I like to often

Start over

With a blank page

Even when I can’t

And sometimes

I wish I could skip ahead

A few chapters

In this book

I’m writing

But I can’t do that

In real life

Either

So I guess

I will just keep writing

Page by page

And I will try

Very hard

To not wish

I could change

My unwritten pages

That I know

Have an outline already written down

Still I keep wondering

What my future holds

Actually

I can change my life

But only in the now

Everything I do

Determines my fate

Do you believe in fate?

I do

Though sometimes it’s hard

Hard to trust in it too

And I tell myself

‘You are never given anything you can’t handle’

That doesn’t help

What if I am - (given something I can’t handle)

But I was meant to

Please

I don’t ever want to die young!

 

My mantra helps slightly

And it’s shorter

‘Everything happens for a reason’

Everything happens for a reason-

But for what reason?

I have so many questions

But no answers

Noanswersnoanswersnoanswers

Breathe

T R U S T

I will try