Because I Love You

Mon, 10/02/2017 - 12:18 -- mayr33

See, the funny thing about having minor asthma

Is that you're not quite at risk for dangerous asthma attacks

But there are still those moments that take your breath away

And leave you struggling to regain what you lost

I first met you on a website where people wrote fanfictions

A strange place to meet, I know. But stranger things have happened.

I had noticed you liking what I wrote and checked out your profile

And your birthday was so close to mine I started a conversation

What a strange beginning.

You lived worlds away, but we aligned our schedules

Often enough that we could keep tabs on each other's lives through Skype

Sometimes we didn't talk for a while. Twice I almost lost you.

Those were the most terrifying moments of my life.

Despite the troubles, we managed to keep our connection

Sending silly photos on Snapchat when we were too busy for conversation

We came to each other with problems and found solutions together

You became a reason for me to carry on.

See, I don't think I've ever told you how breathtakingly beautiful you are.

I've never told you of the sheer joy in my veins that comes from your messages.

I'm too afraid. I don't want to take one step

That could ruin all we've made

But if I were to take that step, know this:

Even though I may not be the best person, I will care for you

I will care for you with every fibre of my being

I will continue to be there for you for as long as you let me

Remain by your side

I know I'm bad at relationships

Friendships are tricky for me

But you understood, and we grew to care for each other

So even if I never take that step, I am content

Being your friend, remaining by your side

Because I love you.

More than you could ever know.


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