Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Life volunteer, path sacrificed.

Not the way you saw in shows,

Not books or movies either.

Stories never could account

For the internal siege here.

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Training- so intense.

I'll miss you, I love you, I'll see you, can’t tell you

Go faster, push harder, end sooner, be stronger

Stay silent, be loudest, keep going

Not enough.

Breathe deeper, aim straighter, don't touch it, keep going

You're useless, you're awful, you're failing, not enough

We need you, they need you, count on you.

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Not enough

Never enough.

Never let them see you cry. No tears.

No sadness.

No interactions no communication no time no freedom

Freedom's what we're fighting for we fight we're wrong can't fight save the fight keep it in not here were are on the same side I am trying

STOP YELLING AT ME.

Don't say it.

Be better.

Yes.

That's it.

Focus.

Focus it.

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Don't they know I'm more than that?

Serve, protect - sometimes you must fight

For the sake of love

Pride

         Purpose

                        Necessity

Survival.

Tell me - what do you fight for?

You don't share my viewpoint.

You don't know my story.

You don't understand my purpose.

My goals. Hopes. Ideals. Dreams.

Does that make me wrong?

You don't understand.

Why does that mean I'm the failure?

I don't share your viewpoint.

I don't know your story.

I don't understand your purpose.

What does that mean for you?

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

This is right. That is wrong.

This is right. This is right. This is right. That is wrong.

                                                                       This is wrong?

Our fortress protects a viper's nest

That seeks only to destroy its shield

That seeks only to dissolve its protection

That is wrong. That is wrong.

That is wrong.

... right?

This is right, must be right, because this cannot be a waste.

So why does no one seem to understand?

Offering only poison in your pity, ignorance, anger.

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Not what I want to do.

Defend until something breaks.

Crack.

           Boom.

                      Crash.

God where are you in this nightmare?

Wake me up, remind me what for.

 

Bang, bang.

Tattattattattat.

Home.

New sounds, new sights - have these always been here?

Broke

            en

You see

You see

You see me

See right through me

Think you know me

Know my flaws

Know my sins

Know me

Wrong.

 

I am flawless.

I have mistakes, I have regrets, I have pain

I have strengths, I have values, I have love

I am more than the sum of my parts

I am more than my labels

More than what you know.

I am.

I am flawless.