From the Ashes
Where was I a year ago?
In a place I could not seem to let go.
With a person I could not learn to unlove
with a body I couldn't stand to touch.
January was colder than I've ever been before
The lack of affection penetrated to my core
February a blur of fading memory and grey
March I forgot where I was, and my own name
April brought showers, but of tears not of rain
May my life was saved by my teacher, again
June we moved out, went separate ways
I began to feel stronger, but was still apt to fade
July I stormed away, said it's over for good.
August brought such loneliness and should, would, could
September they cut me open, and I was gone for six weeks
November in pieces, but I rose in one piece
December I felt the light shine once more on my face
January I am back in my God's sweet embrace
And here, I stand in reflection and thought
of the monsters I found, faced, and fought.
Never has a year transformed me or sent me
to depths so low
or highs experienced so sweetly.
Give me the strength to seek not on my own
but in the grace of your love and the mercy you've shown.