Five times the feeling of pain
Ten times the feeling of death
Fifteen times the feeling of fear
That is what losing her felt like
I lost a friend
A sister
A mentor
A hero
A person who could turn
Every frown into a smile
Every sob into a laugh
All the pain into joy
I lost her today
I lost her because I wasn’t there to protect her
Because I wasn’t there to fight for her
I was gone
I will never forget her smile
Her laugh
Her talent
Her passion
Her love for her family
The way she made me see
That making the status quo
It didn’t matter
Only to them
They were the ones who wanted to destroy us
They were the ones who wanted us dead
All they saw were outcasts
People who chose to live in the shadows
People who chose to be different
They say people who they didn’t understand
So they filed us away
Hated us
Because we were different
We were unknown
We challenged everything that they believed in
They feared us because we saw past the fear of tomorrow
If we fear death more then pain
But death ends the pain
Then why don’t we fear pain more then death
We say the truth hurts
The truth is fact
We just add emotion onto it and make it hurt
So, the truth is painful because every time we hear it
Something inside us breaks
But the truth is still fact
It will haunt us forever
Just like her death
They killed her for being one of us
For being different
For being an out cast
They didn’t understand her
To many of us they didn’t understand
They decided to let three of us live
So they chose to kill her
They killed my sister
My friend
My family
The one person who I trusted
To have my back
No matter what
What ever the price
She watched my back
I watched hers
Now she is dead
Yet she still watches over us
Protecting us
Keeping us safe from them
Freedom is not free
She paid the price
They still decided to let her die
Why her
What did she do
She defied their laws
She made her choice
I wish I could have died in her place
I wish I could have been there
To watch her back
Like she did for me
Instead I left her
She died a hero
But hero’s fade
The legends will always live on
Sly and dangerous
The thieves of shadows
Three can survive
But the rest have died
When the world rips itself apart
Sometimes family doesn’t have to be blood
It can be the people who you live with
Who you see everyday
Who would give everything to make you smile
Family is the people I write for
The people I play for
The ones who I eat lunch with
My family are the ones who watch my back
As I have watched theirs
The ones who feel my pain
Who see what it’s like to be shunned by society
Peace
Love
Nature
We admired nature
We survived in it
Running through the trees
Living on just a knife
Our lives lying on the sharpness of a blade
Living the life of those on the edge
Loud music at three in the morning
Food fights
Pizza stick wars
Dance offs
You call them a waste of time
I call them remembering them
The ones who died to keep me alive
So next time you think you have it easy
You are wrong
If you survive
On the sharpness of a blade
I will say you can be welcomed
I have lived under the status quo my whole life
She died under the status quo
She died a hero
But she will not be honored
I will remember her
I will never forget
I will never surrender
I will never forgive what they did
Go on and try to tear me down
I dare you